Can we truly find love at the end of the universe?

 

Happy late valentines day! I had a rather busy day yesterday, juggling more Muramasa and watching some movies, but I also did some reflection on love and what it means to me! It's strange to think that despite being 24, I'm rather old in my experiences, especially in the realm of love. Being married at 21 and divorcing a few months after really puts a lot of things into perspective, and ever since then, I feel like my love life has been rather messy. Whether it be people I form genuine connections with only for things to fall apart from outside forces, love ruined by my own mistakes, showing me that I'm still human and I still have a lot of learning to do, or simple flings that end up not going anywhere, it's been a turbulent couple of years, and I feel like my perspective on love has changed quite a lot due to it. Truthfully, 2025 was an awfully ear for the Susie love life, as I ended up losing a good few connections I held near to my heart, but December came and I suddenly realized that things do get better. Joining a whole new friend group, making new friends and lovers, fully understanding myself as a person, it's been a wonderful start to my year, and I'm happy to be with the people in my life now. From watching movies together, to playing a simple game, to staying up all night together and laughing our asses off at the dumbest things, falling asleep in call and waking up to the sound of each other's voices, planning trips, enjoying each other's companies, I think I've finally learnt just how important love can truly be, despite the hardships that can come with it. From Sheena to Willow, to Noelle and May, to Ashley and Melaine, I'm happy to have the love in my heart that I do now, and this has been a wonderful year because of them. Of course, this doesn't take away everything that has happened to me either, I still reflect a lot on connections I have lost, and I stumbled upon an old writing piece about an experience in love I used to have. Consider the next post after this to be a reflection on one of the most important relationships in my life, and for everyone else who still follows me, happy valentines day! Hope you find some love in your life this year!!!